I have been thinking a lot lately about how I feel about WordPress awards and whether or not I would accept them/ do them. Well, the deciding point has come. I was nominated for a Very Inspiring Blogger award by ambient_memory.
Although I am grateful for the thought, accepting this award is a difficult thing for me. I like the fact that these awards allow you to get to know other bloggers and do some networking in the community, but they can also be very stressful.
I consider myself to be a fairly new blogger. I have only gotten serious about blogging in the past couple of months. So I’m still getting to know fellow bloggers, which means I’m not really comfortable with socializing with them yet.
What am I getting at?
Well… if you haven’t guessed by my blog name, I have autism. Which means that some parts of communication are difficult for me. And for me, that includes online communication. I have always had a hard time starting a conversation with people and nominating someone for an award is a pretty blunt and straightforward way of starting a conversation.
Possibly the hardest part of this is that I feel like this blog is me. If one of my other blogs had been nominated, it would be relatively easy to choose other people to nominate since those blogs are simply impressions I have had. This blog though is me online. So for the people I meet through this blog, this is essentially who I am to them and as such any socializing I do through this blog is me talking to other people.
So I have decided to accept the award, but it may take me a little while to find the 15 people I would like to nominate in return.