Sometimes you have to stay silent to keep from screaming.
Sorry for the lack of posts lately. I have been switching between feeling depressed and lethargic to feeling somewhat hopeful, but for the most part I have just wanted to disappear. I need a break from life. Luckily that break should come fairly soon. I am taking a week off of work and going back home. Hopefully it will be the break I need and I will be able to return to work without all this frustration I have inside right now.
Lately all that is coming out is poems of frustration or hopelessness. Inside of me feels like explosions of emotions that don’t fit in with my life. And I have no way of expressing those feelings without feeling like I am going completely insane. So, I am going to take some time off and just disappear from all normal activities for a while. Hopefully when I get back the darkness inside will have found an escape or at least will be quenched for a little while longer.