You learn to do hard things by doing hard things over and over again.
Life is really hard. There are so many uncertainties and doubts, struggles and weaknesses. It’s hard to convince yourself to even try sometimes. Usually I find myself trying to convince myself not to try. But I am so grateful for perseverance.
I am grateful for the opportunity to do hard things, and to do them over and over until they become slightly easier. It doesn’t happen overnight. Things usually stay hard for a long time, but when you choose not to convince yourself to quit or back out or never try, things eventually get easier.
Lately I have been trying to not hold myself back as much. I used to convince myself that no one wanted to hear from me, that I wouldn’t be missed, that no one wanted me around anyway. It was hard to contribute anything because I could never tell if it was beneficial. I would assume the worst because I didn’t get any feedback otherwise.
It is so easy to disappear in this world. It is easy to shut yourself off from the world, to keep thoughts to yourself, to refrain from participating in anything. It’s hard to choose to give that up. I am grateful that I have though.
I am grateful that I decided to live a harder life so that eventually it could become easier. I am grateful for the ability to persevere, for the motivation to persevere, and for the support that makes perseverance easier. I am slowly becoming a better person, step by step, every day. And it is through the power of perseverance.