Too Much

I am kind of an intense person. I am passionate about pretty much everything that I do. I think that a lot of people feel that I am “over the top” in my reactions to life. I am overly grateful. I express my appreciation and love more emphatically than anyone I know. I give too much and love too deeply and feel too strongly about things. I probably come across as a “goody two shoes” in church or in certain situations. I’m too open, too honest, too long-winded in my explanations. I often feel like I am just too much for people.

I feel like I have lost friends because of this. I feel like I haven’t been able to become friends with some others because of this. But I don’t know how to be anything else. I try to tell myself to tone things down, to not be so expressive or assertive, but it gushes out of me. Words and actions flow from me like water bursting from a fountain.Ā 

I have stopped trying to suppress my natural inclinations to say something to another person or to do something for someone else. I have stopped trying to force myself to stay in a box I never fit into. And so, I am left with the alternative of simply being too much.

2 thoughts on “Too Much

  1. Faith L. says:

    I am the same too. I seem to be ‘too much’ for people to handle. Too expressive. Too passionate. Too enthusiastic, but hey I was in a great job that allowed me to be all that and it worked incredibly well! One day, you will know someone or have somewhere that you can be yourself too šŸ™‚ hugs. xo

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    • I have some amazing friends that understand who I am and that I can be overly expressive at times. Sometimes I just worry that I might even be too much for them, but they are pretty good at reassuring me that they are okay with it šŸ™‚

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