Something Good- Day 169

Today was a rough day. I was pulled over by a police officer for not stopping at a stop sign. I had stopped, but there is a curve in the road and walls on each side, which prevented the officer from seeing me stop. I do not know what to do when I get stopped by a police officer. I panic and get defensive because I did nothing wrong. This is my third time being stopped by an officer, and my panic reflex has gotten worse each time. It especially makes me anxious because I feel like I have no control over it. I obey all traffic laws as well as I can, but that does not mean I am safe from an officer trying to make a point.

Anyway, the officer gave me a warning, which I still resented because I knew I had stopped. As I drove away though, I was overcome with feelings of anger and resentment and hurt. I wanted to call my best friend or my sister or other family member, to help calm me down and get to a state where I could go to work okay. Instead, I drove to work and blasted my music. My body tensed to the point where my hands couldn’t move the way they should. I thought about pulling over and calling my boss, but I relaxed just enough to drive safely to work.

My body was aching from tensing up so much, and I was in a bad mood. My coworkers could tell right away that I was upset. After working for a while, I finally calmed down enough to do my job. I did snap at one of my coworkers at the end of the night though, and my boss asked me what was going on. I told her about getting pulled over and my bad experiences with police officers and wanting to call out sick. It brought back up some of the feelings, but I mostly held it together.

Anyway, in the midst of all this, I finally was approved for my house refinance. I have been waiting for this for weeks and working on refinancing for months. I am grateful for the terms I was given though and the way this all worked out.

Another thing that made me smile today was talking with a lady who took her dog outside to do his business. She had a crutch, so I stopped to ask if she needed help with walking her dog. She thanked me for my kindness and said I was sweet to offer. She introduced herself, and we talked for a minute before I drove off. It felt good to connect with someone for a minute or two.

Tickets, Timing, and Tissues

It felt like a T day today. But since I don’t drink tea, I’m having hot sauce instead. 🙂 Corny joke, I know, but the world needs a corny joke every once in a while.

Anyway, last week started off with me getting stopped by a cop 10 seconds after getting on the freeway. And… since I didn’t have a Utah license yet, he gave me a warning to get it within 10 days. So, today is the 10th day and I officially have a Utah license now. Fun stuff.

In addition to that, I started getting sick on Sunday and was full on sick yesterday, but miraculously I have hardly felt sick at all today. So even though I’m still a little bitter about the ticket, I am grateful for my good health.

If you’re wondering where timing plays into all of this, basically the timing of these problems was pretty good. I mean, tickets are never good, but at least I was having a good day when it happened. I still cried and was pretty upset about it, but I was able to get over it and do what I had to do.

There’s a lot of good things happening in my life right now and I can’t wait for all of the exciting things planned this weekend. So all in all, life is pretty good. (Just make sure you don’t go the speed of traffic when you happen to pass by a motorcycle cop that was stopped on the side of the road. It doesn’t end well.)